Why Are We Depressed?

So my egbon wrote this…. Quite apt. Been thinking about depression and loneliness for a while. The incentives that enable suffering in silence(keeping appearances, social media, not wanting to be a bother) seem insurmountable, but i think the social upside of solving this problems(especially at scale) will make it worth it.

A midnight ramble(Strelitzia)

I just finished seeing Fences and it’s one of the best movies I’ve ever seen. My best friend says i often see things in black or white, and it was a carousel of the shades of grey. It’s a story of responsibility and perspective and reality and how our lives are a combination of those 3. I met the most interesting person(OA) I’ve met in forever about a month ago and after our 3rd date, she’s seemingly disappeared. A part of me thinks a lot about her and whispers maybe i’ve done something wrong and seems to want to find it and fix it. Another part of me knows that people come and go out of our lives all the time and we sometimes have to let them out  as willingly as we let them in. Then the last part of me remembers my current reality and our discussions, and thinks she made her decision about what she thought was the best for her and that’s what is playing out now.

In the end, we all have our realities and my conjectures are probably different from her reality……

P.S.

  1. My Egbon(Seun Odukoya) wrote a review of the movie here that led me to watch it.
  2. Dive(From Ed Sheeran’s Divide) is my relationship theme song.
  3. I’d play her Something just like this(By the ChainSmokers) if i could rewind the clock to our last date.